ceasing to be something old

I'm tired.
I'm weary.
I'm vexed.
I'm worn.
I'm upset.
I'm crestfallen.
I'm wretched.
I'm angry.
I'm disgusted.
I'm running out of steam.

I'm going to bed grateful that tomorrow isn't today.

large bites

I've spent the past week putting out other people's fires.
My sister-in-law pointed out that I love to be busy and she was right.  I want to be dependable, but not when it gets in the way of what I'm trying to accomplish.  I know that sometimes we have to save other people from themselves, but there's a point in which you have to raise your eyebrow and walk away.

I got the forms for my portfolio committee and my dissertation committee.
I'm printing and mailing out my letter of collaboration on Wednesday at the latest, cleaning up a draft of my chapter three (rather than writing something fresh on the current project) and submitting my portfolio as soon as the letters come back signed.

Then, it's time to cross my fingers and hope for no revisions and dive into the proposal.

on overcoming

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.  Joseph Campbell

People have a hard time letting go of their suffering.
Out of a fear of the unknown, they prefer suffering that is familiar.  Thich Nhat Hanh

 We become something new by ceasing to be something old.  Frederick Buechner


When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.  Lao Tzu


The only question is how?
How do we let go of the things that hold us back?
How do we let go of the things that scare us and how do we let go of the things that don't work about the people we are?


I've been listening to Adele and reading over old books... did a bunch of outings with people I love this week... nothing's helping yet.  Maybe I need to take a walk.  Grrrr.
It infuriates me to not be good at things.

live out loud

I am getting to help a 10 month old start to walk.
I get to share in the lives of the people I love... I have a group of people with whom I can bubble over with excitement about the great stuff.
I am working on something that I think is so ridiculously cool and I have contact with people in my field whom I admire.
I have new, sweet projects coming down the pike that I've been looking forward to.
I'm doing something different and unique and I'm starting to see things mesh and interconnect in ways that I didn't see possible.
I am blessed and I am so excited to get to be me.
I'm just realizing that living out loud really does mean loving out loud and loving out loud is being grateful, generous and realizing that the more we give, the more we all have.

The media is terrifying in this country. Dependability has gone out the window when it comes to the news- violence and rubbish reign.
People seem not to know how to treat one another anymore.
The economics of this country are crazy, scary and selfish.
Irresponsibility, greed, and laziness are becoming near standard.
It's easy to complain about the bad, but what does that do besides breed more negativity and ugliness? We need to change and we don't do that by bellyaching... we do that by showing people what our values are and acting accordingly.
Not condemning.
Not intimidating.
Empowering.
Simply living the best we can, living out loud and letting our joy and prosperity speak for itself.
Believing in others and helping them realize what they have to add to this world and what their path is to do so.

What are you grateful for?
What makes you feel like you're living out loud?

If you're in a funk and feel like there isn't anything that you could possibly be grateful for or can do to change, check this out:
http://tinybuddha.com/blog/live-your-life-out-loud-30-ways-to-get-started/