The sea has never been friendly to man. At most it has been the accomplice of human restlessness.
Joseph Conrad
I feel restless today. I just finished edits on that prof's paper. I'm not happy with my edits. I feel like I should have done more and I want to be more involved in the process of things, but I get nervous. I see these whole huge things... opposite of the old expression, I can't see the trees in the forest.
The restlessness could be contributed to so many things: that paper, the weekend I just had, what's going on at work and what I still need to do to finish my portfolio (the letters were returned and scanned). These are all things that I can do a great deal of good with. I'm inviting someone back into my life who I lost touch with years ago. I love this person and I'm so happy to have reconnected... but nothing is a given. My hands are tied with a few things at work... all I can do is empathize and follow up. My introduction hasn't gelled and my chapter three is still a mess... I need to sit down with them and let them speak.
I wonder how much of what I do I do out of restlessness. My accomplices run gamut from searching for another degree to chase to my new obsession with baking bread and cooking.
How many of these things are simply ways for me to keep moving when what I probably need is to take a little time and breathe?
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