The house is a wreck right now. Dishes are all cleaned... there are just far too many sitting in the strainer right now. I only have half a dozen small presents left to buy, but nothing is wrapped yet. The nails are up over the French doors, but I haven't hung the garlands.
I've spent all of my free time this weekend (when I wasn't baking with my mother or at "obligations") on my computer, watching trailers of funny movies, old sit-coms (Lucy, anyone?) and comedy shows. All I figured out was a handful of things.
1, the house really does fall apart when you don't keep up on it. Pretty much every empty surface (with the exception of chairs and my bed) is currently covered with paperwork to do, books to read, presents to wrap and things to file.
2, Holiday cards don't write themselves. I think they'll be coming a little late this year. Hope no one minds.
3, I am absolutely no closer to done with this proposal than I was a month ago. I have decisions to make, but I feel underprepared to make them. One advisor gave me more work to do... the other is looking for answers and I've got none yet.
4, Work obligations based on other peoples' massive eff-ups are really the worst. Getting 2 things straightened out for work is costing me far too much in time and there is no outlet for the absolute rage I feel towards the people who screwed this up.
I want to go to bed... but I'm trying to keep a little focus to get something done tonight.
Truth of the matter is that there is very little that matters. If the inside doesn't get decorated, so be it. None of the holidays are planned here and if people stop, I have an ironclad excuse. I will get the proposal done... it's just not going to work on the schedules I've set out and as long as I keep an open line of communication with my advisors, it should be ok.
The important thing- my heart will be in town on Thursday. Two and a half feet tall and can't even say "Aunt Mart" yet... but knowing that she's on her way makes everything brighter, sweeter and softer. I'd like to believe that as long as my heart is in the right place, everything else will come together.
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