Petulant

I feel like a cranky child having a tantrum right now. I am so attached to something that I want and so angry at myself for wanting something that I promised myself I wouldn't want that I'm refusing to see everything else around me that I have to do and want to accomplish. 

Someone once told me that time will pass no matter what and it is. Days like today I feel like a rock, stuck in a riverbed with the current ripping rapidly around me- time is moving and I am not.

How do I turn this around? How do I make time into family and accomplish all I've set out before me? Trust me, it's one hell of an obstacle course:

Boundaries. Nothing in this world is accomplished (actually done well) without focus and focus means knowing when to do something and when to knock it off. It's knowing time is a finite resource and limiting contact with the people and things that don't allow me to focus or to utilize that time to the best of my ability.

It's trusting. Letting the eff go of certain things for bits of time, knowing I have to put things down occasionally to know what to do with them when I pick them back up.

It's breathing. And taking one step at a time. Ok, onward and upward.