Ride

Surprises. My life is overflowing with surprises right now. I haven't really caught my breath since the first rolled out in March and they keep arriving in waves. Losing people, losing things, losing my compass and wondering exactly where this identity I've been hiding behind for so long really came from.

Welcoming new challenges and new people into my life has opened me up to identify and make keep or trash decisions on nuances of myself. My insecurities mirrored in those of others. Unintentional triggers. Misunderstandings that lead everything to fall apart and lay bare and sometimes matter so much less than the underlying issues found and simply let go of.

I asked someone on a date two weeks ago what his life plan was... It wasn't a job interview interrogation- it was the tag line in a health insurance billboard we drove past. He answered, but neglected to ask me the same and I didn't offer. I'm offering it to you: my life plan is to enjoy what I have left with the people I find fascinating and who adore me doing something that intrigues me and adds value to this world. Tall order? You betcha. I've always been accused of having expensive tastes, and I've finally learned where being discerning and uncompromising really matters.