Try to look at things positively.
The Marine Corp Marathon is tomorrow. I had to defer until next year.
People who know me well think this is funny. I've never been a runner. I've never enjoyed it.
I started running last winter, registering for this race and two others in February.
What happened?
I was slow and I was in pain. A slipped disc and hip issue stopped me in my tracks. I was sidelined completely from running, having to miss both the Boilermaker and the MCM.
Physical therapy and training commenced and I'm happy to say I'm cleared to run, but only a half a mile at a time right now.
I'm learning protocol and expectations for something new at work... the issues getting in the way are other people's expectations and politics. These include my own expectations... I want perfect. I don't mean to be a perfectionist, but I have a firm belief that people deserve the best of me and the best from me and that's not what everyone's getting right now.
I don't like settling, but right now, I need to do the best I can and be happy with that.
I have a meeting with both of my advisors tomorrow and haven't sent a document for us to cover yet. I'm freaking out that I'm not pushing myself with this, but I'm stuck. The project I want to start is massive and I don't want to muck it up. Ugggh. What am I going to do?
So, how are we going to get from here to there?
Follow the PT and trainers instructions. Push, but learn the difference between pain and sore. Watch what goes in my mouth as well as what comes out of it.
Do the best I can with the work stuff and the grad school stuff.
If it takes a little longer because of how full my plate is, so be it. The world isn't going to end and the people who matter won't think any worse of me for it. Stop being concerned with the bull and with people who are vicious and ridiculous. Strive for transparency.
Deep breaths... let's get some work done.
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