Over

I get overwhelmed. It isn't that I can't parse out the important, it's that I get to a point where it's almost like I've been shot in the forehead with elephant tranquilizers laced with LSD and I feel like I'm being pulled in by the undertow of this absurd sh#t show. I see all of the blatant banality and wonder how on earth anything could be considered reputable. This is why I take social media detoxes and this is one of the reasons why I keep small and selective company. Untrained minds given a forum without a focus feel absolutely chaotic en masse... And truth be told, I don't want/ need to know how deep or shallow my pseudo acquaintances' thought pools run or how negative or thoughtless their streams of consciousnesses (I'm sure it's a word) flow.

I'm over tired right now. It's after 4 am and my mind has yet to catch its breath from the utter melee of IRB forms and revisions that I'm feebly attempting to be positive about.

In true me fashion I've been reaching for the perfect storms to cope or try to get out from under this crushing pressure, but yet again, they've overthrown me. At some point I sincerely hope I know better for the sake of my stomach, heart and mind...

I need to get over it.

This sucks right now. I'm pissed and scared and I'm in the middle of it. I'm absolutely capable of getting through it with less harm, more joy and more rest... Deep breath. Ok, eff it, let's get a little sleep and get some forms done.